ugh the first letter I got back from Matt is still making me emotional because He flat out says it was a mistake he joined but hes going through it so we can have our lives together. That, that is his motivation.
I still wish I had talked him out of It but now that I know he hates it and says its a mistake he joined I gotta tell him he can do it and I’m proud of him . Which I am and already do, don’t get me wrong, but its so much harder now telling him those things when he keeps talking about how awful it is and how much he hates it.
And I wish people would stop with the ‘he’s free now’ or ‘he’s happy now’ stuff because whilst I understand the sentiment, that’s really not a good message to send to people who are currently struggling with depression and/or suicidal thoughts. There’s a reason that suicide goes up after a high profile suicide like this, and those kind of sentiments are part of it.